Heyy

Omgoodness...I can't believe my first year of college is almost done, I have gone through so much and done so many new things. I have been so busy that I don't do much of the things that I used to do, or the things that I love. I can't wait until this summer when I have more time for other people and things that are important to me. I have changed so much since I've come to college, so bad and some good. I need to change some things to get to where I want to be, but that won't be too hard. I can't wait until this summer, it is sure looking up. I will hopefully get some time to relax and think about myself and what I really want. I'm debating a lot of things right now but I have so much going on that I'm not sure if I am thinking clear enough to make some of the decisions that I need to be making soon. I have to move out in a week, and that is going to be hard too. Though I don't stay in my dorm much, there is something about having it there and having my own space that I love. I no longer really have a room at home, so that was my place, but now I have to move out and idk where I want to go yet or what I want to do. I find it hard sometimes to actually just sit and think, but when I do I tend to get upset. I remember the past and the present, I do not necessarily like certain events from the past and I see how they are affecting my present. I also miss people and things from the past, my family too. I just think that this week is going to be awesome, because I know it's the last one til I can be "me" again!!!

today

Today is a good day, but I've just got to say that I'm tired of ignorant people. I'm tired of the people that are trying to be people they are not. We are in college for crying out loud. What is the point of lying and arguing and trying to be someone you're not??? What kind of life is that? Always trying to be someone else, why can't people just be themselves, isn't that good enough? Why do people have to lie???? Can't they see it hurts the people around them, and also hurts them too when they get caught, and 9 out of 10 times the truth comes out eventually, so why not skip the middle part and be an adult and tell the flippin truth. Then you won't have to worry bout getting caught up or anything, it's simple. Don't lie, and be yourself. That's all I have to say right now....people can be very ignorant.... not saying that I never am, but I try my best to be myself and to tell the truth.... it's easier that way....!!!

For Meaghan

Life is crazy. School, work, church, boy, family, friends, basketball....repeat that over and over and that is my life. I love life though, I never seem to be able to predict it anymore. It used to be so simple when I lived at home, but things have changed, and everything is different. New. Not much is what it seems to be, and people aren't who they seem to be either. I was shocked as I moved to college and realized all the things that my parents had done their best to protect me from for so long was right in front of me, and it was my decision to choose now. At times I feel alone, though I know I'm never alone, sometimes it is really hard. Sometimes I'm not sure if this is the direction in life that I want to be taking, so I'm living every day, one by one, until I figure out what I really want, more like I know what I really want, I just need to figure out how to get it. I used to have everything planned out, but it seems as if I do not remember any of that plan, as I'm not even sure what I want to do with my life, I'm currently in the process of defining my major more, possibly changing. I have changed so much that I'm not sure what I want anymore, if it is all worth it. But I have faith that everything will work out. I know that everything that I am going through is just because I have to figure things out for myself. Through all of this not knowing things, I am really happy, because I know no matter what that Heavenly Father is always there and my family, and that is a big comfort to me!!!

LAST NIGHT

So last night I wanted to go to a bonfire...and since I was driving myself my parents said they wanted me home by 10:30, but since they are so amazing and I have amazing persuasive skills, they extended it to 11:45. So I went to the bonfire and it was ok... and then to a haunted hayride....which was a little better.... but then the most interesting part of the night happened on the way home...... so my parents don't give me curfews unless I'm going to have to drive home by myself, and I have yet to make it home by curfew EVER!!! so last night it was my goal to make it home by 11:45.... it was supposed to take me 25 minutes to get home from where I was.... so in trying to accomplish my goal... I left early.... at 11:15.... so on the way home....I realized I was speeding, and was like "this is stupid, I left early, no need to speed" and so I slowed down!!!! About 5 minutes later.... I saw lights in my rearview mirror...so I pulled over...after searching through my glovebox and finally finding the current registration (which was the 3rd one I gave him) he went back to his car and came back with a written warning!!!!! I was sooo happy not to get a ticket, and I thought I might still have time to get home by curfew!!! So I was driving.... and my mom called and I told her that I thought I could make it but I might be a few minutes late because of what had just happened and she said that was fine...just not to speed and get home carefully....so then I was like ok..... and I was driving along.... almost home... 11:47 and my mom calls again....it rings once...and then my phone dies...and I was like craud....she's going to be really worried....just get home!!!! Well I was like a minute away from my house!!! As my phone died I was stopping at a stop sign, which apparently I didn't stop good enough at, because a few seconds later I saw a police officer pull out of the bank and start following me..... I wasn't quite sure if he was going to pull me over, and I thought that I could make it home before he did.... which I was successful at!!!! He definitely turned on his lights and followed me into my driveway!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The first thing that popped into my head was to hide the written warning sitting on the seat behind me.....which I was successful at!!! Then he came to my window, blah blah blah.... and I found my registration easily because I had put it on top...but this time I couldn't find my license.... and I kept thinking...I just had it....but of course I couldn't tell him that!!!!!!!!!! So finally I found it!!!!!!!!!! and the police officer remembered me because he was one of the two that pulled me over over the summer..... newayz...thankfully he didn't look on the computer and see that I had just gotten a written warning!!!!! So he gave be a verbal warning!!! I perceeded to drive onto my basketball court.... run inside....to where my parents were unhappily waiting!!!!!!!! they said we'd talk in the morning!!!! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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for some reason my indents didn't work on any of the posts!!!!

Senior Journal Entry Number 10: Homecoming Week

Word Count: 258

This year homecoming week has been a blast. I absolutely love the dress-up days. My favorite day was Mardi Gras day, but I can not wait until tomorrow. Spirit Day is going to be so much fun, I am definitely going to be decked out. I am going to have a ton of fluorescent attire on. I am going to have a fluorescent shirt, fluorescent socks, fluorescent head-band, fluorescent fingernails, fluorescent war-paint, and I am going to spray my hair 7 different colors. I am definitely going to be unmissable. (which I do not think is a word, but I like it)
Pajama day on Monday was great, though I still got up and showered, I loved being totally comfortable the whole day. Plus the fact that we did not have to wear shoes was great. I also liked Decades day, though I did not dress up, it was still fun. Jersey Day was Wednesday and I like it. I wore a Plainfield jersey and everyone hated me, it was great!!!! I had so much fun throughout the week, and the homecoming games, itself, is going to be a blast.
I definitely went and helped do hall-decorating. Seniors definitely dominated!!!!! We had a blast decorating the hall. We did not do it last year, but we made up for it this one. It looked amazing, the underclassmen definitely did not have a chance. It took us all of the three hours that they gave us, and it was awesome!!! I had an absolute blast decorating the hall!!!!

Senior Journal Entry Number 9: Powder Puff

Word Count: 250

So this year I was talked into playing power puff. It was so much fun, and I loved it. The seniors definitely dominated. I had so much fun at practices, and during the games. I definitely love having permission to beat others up. Something about that makes me happy.
When I came to the first practice, I had absolutely no clue about football. I had absolutely to idea about anything. I had heard a few things, but I did not understand anything. I had never even attempted to play before, so everything had to be explained to me. I started out as a tight-end, but then as some of the girls dropped out, I played tackle.
Before the game I went to Emilee’s house to get ready. I had so much fun getting ready for it, though we did not do too much. I had not had a chance to just sit and relax in such a long time, it was so nice to be able to do that. We put on war-paint, tall socks, and we did a bunch of other stuff.
The games were really fun. We definitely beat the freshmen first, and then we beat the sophomores. They definitely did not have a chance. I had a blast playing, and I now know a little bit about what is going on, but I still do not know much about football. I think that football is fun now, and I will probably play again in the future!!!!